The past is the present

I have been thinking about my past and how it has shaped me into the person that I am today, but I am not sure why I am thinking about this. Is it because I am wishing that I was back in the past, or is it that I am not happy with the person that I am now? Maybe I think this because the past is where my mistakes have all went down and I am regretting some of the foolish, childish aspects of my younger teen years. Who knows, I sure am very puzzled by this.

Parts of my past that I regret would have to be letting a few so- called friends step on me and a relationship or two that were not the best. I think that throughout high school I wanted to be the girl that everyone liked and could just come up and say ‘hi’ to, but  now I realize that I cannot please every person that I encounter because if I could I would be a god or something and I am most definitely not that. As for the couple of  high school relationships that I have been in, well let’s just say that I learned that there needs to be two people in it and not just one person putting forth all of the effort. High school was a huge part of my shaping into the person I am now, but I am so glad that I am done with that loveliness.

My present is consumed of college, work, friends and family, and my boyfriend. It may be hard at times, but I would not change a thing because I have learned how important it is to have people that care about you and want you to succeed in every way possible. I was so afraid that college was going to be just like high school, but it is not as bad as I thought it would be. As for the people who I share most of my time with, they are the best and without them I would never have learned how to love another.