The past is the present

I have been thinking about my past and how it has shaped me into the person that I am today, but I am not sure why I am thinking about this. Is it because I am wishing that I was back in the past, or is it that I am not happy with the person that I am now? Maybe I think this because the past is where my mistakes have all went down and I am regretting some of the foolish, childish aspects of my younger teen years. Who knows, I sure am very puzzled by this.

Parts of my past that I regret would have to be letting a few so- called friends step on me and a relationship or two that were not the best. I think that throughout high school I wanted to be the girl that everyone liked and could just come up and say ‘hi’ to, but  now I realize that I cannot please every person that I encounter because if I could I would be a god or something and I am most definitely not that. As for the couple of  high school relationships that I have been in, well let’s just say that I learned that there needs to be two people in it and not just one person putting forth all of the effort. High school was a huge part of my shaping into the person I am now, but I am so glad that I am done with that loveliness.

My present is consumed of college, work, friends and family, and my boyfriend. It may be hard at times, but I would not change a thing because I have learned how important it is to have people that care about you and want you to succeed in every way possible. I was so afraid that college was going to be just like high school, but it is not as bad as I thought it would be. As for the people who I share most of my time with, they are the best and without them I would never have learned how to love another.

The essence of Family

When I think about what family means to me I think about how ridiculous they can be most of the time, but I would not change anything about the way my family is because they are the people who make me, me. I have a brother, Matt who is a sophomore in high school, a mom and a dad, well, also a dog named Princess. This may be the family that I was born into, but that is not the only family that I consider having. I think that anyone who is close to you and had your best interest at heart qualifies as family. Friends, boyfriend’s family, friends’ families or anyone who welcomes you with open arms is family the way that I see it.

Over the years I have made really good connections with my friend, Jake’s grandparents. I have known them for the eight years that Jake and I have been friends for and I keep learning how wonderful it is to have elders like them in my life again. I lost the two grandparents that I was really close to about six years ago and it was really hard for me, but having built the new connections helped to mend me a little, I truly believe that. I am so grateful that I have some grandparent- like figures back in my life.

In the nine months that Tyler and I have been dating, I have come to adore his younger siblings, Caleb and Emma, and also his mom and dad. I remember about a month ago that I was over at his house for Emma’s 5^th birthday party and his mom said, “Well you are part of the family now!” I thought that it would have scared me when she said that, but it actually made me feel at peace, like they really liked me and wanted me to be around for a good, long time.

Family in any form is crucial to being a well-rounded person and I feel that without it a part of me would be missing. As annoyed or frustrated I get with my family, I will always love them to death, but it is also nice to know that I do have other people who love me to hear me out if I want to talk things out.

Blogging with a purpose

So a new semester of English and we are still doing this blog stuff. I guess blogging is not as terrible as I thought. I mean who would not like to just be able to vent about everything that is going on in their lives. Especially for college students like me who are not entirely sure what path they want to stick to as a serious career. Also, blogging to me is a way of rambling on a whole bunch of topics that go on in my head. I definitely think that finding a subject that you can write a page about is the most difficult part of making a blog post because sometimes they just come to you or make you really think about what interests you. In the previous semester I did a few blogs about some of my favorite things like zebras, Katy Perry, and MTV shows. Yeah to some these my seem pointless, but to me it made me realize that how I came to love these things so much. The peer reflection of me is what I am getting from doing these weekly blog posts. I also talked about the music that I grew up listening to such as NSync and DreamStreet. That was actually quite fun to write because I got to reminisce about all of the crushes I had on the boy band members, which I definitely got a little chuckle out of! Then I have taken the time to reflect on something that is truly important to me: Love. I learned through blogging just how much someone that you get to know over time is the most amazing thing in the word. To wrap up, I was able to turn a requirement for a class into something that has a meaning and  into something that I really do not mind doing.